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Friday, 22 July 2016

The Monkey Makes Some Progress

Well, back down to earth and we have entered another phase in the MND journey. Pump feeding in earnest. For some time now there has been a concern that Roch is not getting enough nutrition but he was holding out against pump feeding (being attached to a device which pumps liquid nutrition continuously through the feeding tube in his stomach). His reluctance was understandable. Some months back, we tried it during the day at home and he felt it tied him to the house. In practical terms, it's possible to attach him to the pump and bring it with us when we leave the house but I think we both felt too anxious to do that and so we have ended up pump feeding at night. 

In fact, it's working out really well. He is definitely putting on weight and now we don't have to worry so much about whether he is getting enough nutrition during the day. He has one meal in the daytime, and he can decide to eat whatever he wants. It's still tiring for him to eat but he feels it's worth it - he can still eat and taste the food.
It means he has to have his meal earlier, as it's not a good idea to pump feed on a full stomach - but that's okay, we have just adjusted the routine. 

There have been other changes to the routine. We used to remove the ventilator mask in the morning, to give him a few hours sleep without the mask, but now he needs to keep it on for longer.  I won't lie, it was a bit of a relief, as it meant we wouldn't have to get up early on days off work, to take his mask off. But now of course, every morning, the feeding tube has to be detached from the pump and flushed through (before and after each feed) with 150ml cool, boiled water. One task is replaced by another. It's the reality of life with MND. 

I can't help feeling rather proud of myself for mastering all this pump feeding stuff. We did get training. In fact we had a rather supercilious and annoying Nutricia nurse who came to train us but I still felt quite intimidated by the whole business. I think his Carers would agree - but we've all learned how to do it and even done our fair share of troubleshooting...

The monthly delivery from Nutricia Homeward is growing (syringes, Fortisip drinks, Nutrison Protein feed for the pump). The bedroom downstairs is beginning to resemble Del Boy's flat...

We were worried that having 800ml of liquid feed overnight (soon to be 1,000ml), he would need the toilet more often at night time, but this hasn't proved the case - maybe one extra pee? Once or twice a visit to the loo has been necessary, but I think that's been when he's eaten later in the day and we've adjusted the timetable accordingly. The trusty urinal bottle is our friend at night, as he doesn't have to leave his bed. 

Another significant change for Roch is that he can no longer turn in bed. He was managing (with difficulty) to turn himself once when settling himself to sleep, but he can't do that anymore. So in general now I settle to sleep on the futon beside his bed (forward thinking - thank you Eoin Maher for getting it downstairs for me back in September) and when he needs to be turned I rise sleepily to assist. When the night time Carer is here (for the nights before my working days), they sleep on the sofa bed in the kitchen and perform the same task when called). 

Settling to sleep downstairs with him has been good for us. After his bedtime routine is complete (from chair to bed, attached to ventilator and pump, dressings on and creams applied etc.) and I am ready for bed, I plug us into his reading device and we lie beside each other, listening to a book together. It's an opportunity to talk about the day and how we are feeling, discuss plans and generally feel like a regular married couple for a time. Lately, because his ears have been blocked (wax build up? Ventilator use - have other users of Bi-pap machine experienced this?) conversation has been minimal, but just being there is nice. 

I usually fall asleep listening to the book and once awake for the turning and he is settled again, I take myself off to my bed upstairs, to enjoy uninterrupted repose until it's time to detach him from the pump in the morning, unless the relentless beeping of the alarm heralds a visit downstairs. But this rarely happens these days. It may change. I suspect I may find myself spending more time on the futon in future. My back will not be happy. 

Texting is becoming difficult for him, as no doubt some of you will have noticed. It's funny when I remember that when we first met and for many years after, this medium of communication didn't even exist. Now we rely heavily on it so I am beginning to really miss being able to text him directly. I can text whichever Carer is on duty for the practical things and they can confer with him and get back to me - but see how our personal communication becomes eroded? I can see how a distance could gradually form between us. This is why it's a good thing to keep one or two days a week, when it's just us and when I am the one here to look after him. I can't do it every day and I need my time but if I never do it? That doesn't work for me. 

The hot weather is a challenge for him. There's no doubt the bad air quality affects his breathing. The ankles tend to swell so it's feet up as much as possible and cold compresses at night. The trusty fan has been retrieved from the attic and is proving invaluable. We've had it for at least 14 years but as it only comes out for a few days every year (if we're lucky) it's lasting forever! However, the good weather has more than a few advantages, and sitting in the garden together enjoying the sunshine and having a cosy chat is definitely one of them. No texting required.
Clear blue Skies - July 2016

1 comment:

  1. Deirdre,

    I have been reading your blog for at least a couple of years. I am a big admirer of you and of your husband. Your writing about this disease is important, inspiring and courageous.

    I have been something of a "secret admirer" of his on PLM for some time. I was officially diagnosed with ALS a little more than five years ago and consider him to be one of the members of the "ALS class of 2009/10 (or thereabouts)." It is sad to reflect that we are two of a very small (and dwindling) number remaining. There will be no joyful reunions in years to come.

    (I also feel a connection due to our similar ages, family situations--I have two daughters just a few years older than your children I believe--and from what I have read here and on PLM, similar outlooks on life. We are both very lucky to be married to remarkable, strong women.)

    Roch may recognize my PLM screen name, "StillSteve," though before today I have been very quiet on there for a long time (after awhile the mounting losses get to be hard to see). But I am getting a feeding tube placed on Tuesday and logged in to refresh my memory on things I have read there about the process. When I didn't see anything recent there from Roch, I visited your blog.

    Great to see good news, and your most recent post about feeding tube issues is hopeful to me. I've been dreading this change, but to see how you two are dealing with it is very encouraging (and I do understand how a few paragraphs about how well it is working out don't begin to convey all of the challenges and work that goes into each victory of this kind). I am very happy for your success!

    Probably what really pushed me to reach out like this is the coincidental use of the same Charlie Brown/Snoopy graphic here that I used on my "Five Years In" blog post a couple of months ago. Fantastic philosophy to live by and I try to do so as much as possible. My post can be found here:

    My best always to you, Roch and your family!

    Steve, still